Turn Into The Whole Wild World I Made Up

May. 1st, 2005

06:15 pm - ...walking....walking...walking...looking....looking...looking...around

Walking through life, tense and afraid. Tense that things won't be the way I want them to be. Afraid, I will be hurt, yet again. People walk away. And never show. Why should I hope? So, let my words be heard, so loud, they drown me out. No one will listen to me now. To the crazy bitch and her crazy bitch ways. To the shouts so full of pain, they disappear. All they hear are the shouts so loud, and near. Be afraid, and back away, don't ask about the pain. Call me out, the crazy bitch, for all that I am. Tell me not to generalize the pain, with your look of disdain. Make it clear you are not me, how could you be? Be confused, as my tears land, at the feet of superman. Little slits on my heart, from little spars, out of your mouths. They sting as they bleed, and drip right from my finger tips into the cesspool of worldly deeds. Misunderstand all the things I say. Beauty could be. But, that you just can't understand? Tense and afraid, I am.

Current Mood:

discontent

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Apr. 29th, 2005

09:46 pm

What if I've been running a race? But, I never really noticed...until now? What if there were people surrounding as far as the eye could see...and we were all running in the same direction-- but then I notice-- and everyone turns and starts running in every direction possible. And I just stop...and watch...as everyone runs. Do I have to run?

Current Mood:

thoughtful

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Apr. 25th, 2005

01:13 am

Don't you think you should be able to tell yourself...self...be over this---like now! [And] don't you think that your self should listen, I mean, come on you are your self. Yeah, that would be nice, in all sorts of ways.

Current Mood:

quixotic

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Apr. 22nd, 2005

07:38 pm - Holy Hottness!!! Jeez...

So...I was just watching The Daily Show with Jon Stewart...and they had this guy on there-- Reza Aslan--yeah---he is flippin' hott!!!! Check him out at http://www.rezaaslan.com/index.html Ahh...he looks so hott...and smart...I love his glasses...drool...

Current Mood:

giggly

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Apr. 17th, 2005

11:20 pm - Feelings...jeez...

Ahh...what a place to be in life...I feel like that is where I am...but what next? Does anyone want to chain themselves to a bulldozer tomorrow? What if I don't have my own chains? Whall will I do then?